"come to the water"

colson texted:

"being broke for a whole

month gets to you."   

the most important thing to

colson is his rent.  he's been

eating top ramen every day.

we were talking this afternoon,

and i was reminding him that

Jesus always comes through.

a very, very, very sweet angel

put money in his account.  unbe-

known to us. Jesus always,

somehow, in time, makes a way.

colson was craving a hot dog.

God took care of it.  i wept.

woohoooo for Jesus.

i plan to take amtrak to

monterey on tuesday.  taylor

is doing a photo shoot for the

cover of the reprint of  "seduced

by success."   last week,  his

partner, tony pinillos, took 98 different shots of me for

"i'm running to win."

taking my picture is one of

my least-favorite activities,

by the way.  i just suck it up

and pray; so much rather be out

changing the world for Jesus.

life really is NOT about us.

i only see me    

as a vessel...

and a very inept one at that.

today,  i accomplished almost

nothing.  saw so many co-dependent pieces about myself.

went to church, but somehow

lost my way in the middle of

the sermon.

i've earnestly prayed.. and

promised God i will do better

tomorrow.

here are some children i try

to invest in. struggling situations.

"and Jesus says...

come to the water.

stand by my side.

I know you felt every tear that I cried.... and I'm here to remind you

that for your tears I died-.."