july 4

july 4, in monterey.

breezy. hair-swept. the sun

dancing on the rippling, busy

waves among throngs of people.

taylor and i start out.

camera slung over one shoulder...

and with his other arm, taylor

hanging on to me.  pain meds

in my system so i can walk.

a photo shoot to achieve, and

rocks to climb over..and steps

to conquer. maneuvering through

wind and sun placement in the

sky and cars and bikes and

many smiling faces.

having to take this pain medication

is definitely not addiction, but

survival.  watching runners put

tears in my eyes.  i dream of

the day i can toss the pills,

and even just walk without

searing knife jabs.  at least we

finally know i'm not just a

"slow heal";  the bone just

never fused.

this is, as i've mentioned, for

the new cover of my book,

"seduced by success..".

deliverance. wholeness.  and

having my sweet, tall, lean

son.. fresh out of school with

his film degree...position me.

and study the sky. and smile

in whole-hearted support, while

snapping away.  how much

better can it get?!!

suddenly,

i was done.  enough.

we headed for the most

authentic, french bakery

and ordered a princess cake

with marzipan.  an almond croissant. two baby quiches,

and a raspberry pastry. cold

drinks. a cozy table.

we inhaled it all.

we both have that blessing

of calories somehow sliding

right out of our systems to

places far away and unknown.

my mother weighed 125 pounds

almost her entire life, and at

5'8", i'm even a little less.

BUT!!!! 

there are many other things

i don't have that i wish for. i

hope that before i die, someone

will discover a pill you can swallow

that instantly turns white skin

dark.  maybe not' til heaven.

i pray you had a blessed

fourth!  happy birthday, sara!

"i will tell of the kindnesses

of the Lord....yes, the many good

things He has done..."  isaiah 63

celebrate

Jesus

today!!!!!

"ann, and private photographer...taylor"