Wednesday, June 26

my identical twin.
shared the womb together.
one. before air and laughter
and camaraderie; before
utter love and souls intertwined.

yesterday .. the news that pinched
my shaky core. .sent
chills down my spine.

i have run straight to jan
in my most traumatized
moments.and wrapped my
soul around hers.

she is like my sons.
my morning sky and afternoon
sun and every evening, setting

i open my hands fully.
telling Jesus jan is ALL HIS.
He can take or leave.
because we are His.
living of dying.

i hate cancer,
but i love jan,
and i must trust God.
to the end.


  1. I's so goos to know God loves you both

  2. God is good even when it is difficult to understand. I am praying for you and Jan.

  3. I will be praying for you both! Love you Ann!

  4. You both are in my prayers. Having loved His own which were in the world, He loved them unto the end. And beyond. Then when He himself shall descend from heaven with a shoult, with the voice of the archangel, and with the trump of God - He loves us still. There is never a time when He is not walking with both of you, suffering in your sufferings, crying in your tears, hoping in your hope - because He as suffered all these things for Jan and you - all so that He could give both of you His joy which lives even in the depths of grief. Praise Him that you both walk in trust even when the way is so hidden in darkness.

  5. I'm so sorry to hear about your sister. I was diagnosed with cancer in October. (three separate breast cancers involving both breasts). Will be going through treatment for a year. I will keep you both in my prayers.

  6. sending you all my love and prayers. ann