looking for another car.
i turn in my rental today.
my insurance gave me two weeks.
and here i am.
last saturday, a couple friends of mine and i
went out to used car lots, looking.
every car in each lot. 105 degrees.
nothing! just nothing!! hot and grimy and
weary and wondering.
i told my pastor's wife that when she
hears a big noise, and sees an old car pull
into the church parking lot, she will automatically
know i've arrived. i loved my kia sorento. it had
everything on it. taylor had found it for me two
summers ago when he was home.
just like death.
in a second. a moment. and
everything changes. someone
walks into his job of 24 yrears, and
is notified he is being fired. "do not
show up tomorrow!"
a woman from facebook says she has
sent out 500plus job applications....i don't know
how often or for how long....but she is putting one
foot in front of the other. i'm so glad she told me
about herself. finding a job or a car that i can
afford is so difficult. today, i am going to the bank.
to the grocery store. getting whatever i need in
case i can't leave my house. without a car, there
is no where for me to go since i'm in the country.
i'm afraid. i cannot remember one day that i haven't
gone somewhere. errands or visiting someone or
heading for the gym to workout. and how will i look
for cars? or get here to panera's to blog?
"fear not, for i am with you. do not be
dismayed. I am your God. I will
strengthen you; i will help you; i will uphold
you with My victorious right hand." (isaiah 41:10)
whatever your needs are today,
and whatever are mine...we are commanded
to be CONTENT. that the closer we draw to Jesus,
the more power He infuses in us.
the accident was not my fault, but i was left
with some big problems. Jesus always stops us
when we are just roaming around. on some level,
self-sufficient. He calls us to bow down. to sit and
rest. to be silent and listen. so He can use what is
happening to us to stretch our wings and help us to
fly higher and farther for Him. to learn to be utterly
dependant on Him. we are waiting, Lord. waiting