Tuesday, August 28

looking for another car.
i turn in my rental today.
my insurance gave me two weeks.

and here i am.

last saturday, a couple friends of mine and i
went out to used car lots, looking.
every car in each lot. 105 degrees.
nothing! just nothing!! hot and grimy and
weary and wondering.

i told my pastor's wife that when she
hears a big noise, and sees an old car pull
into the church parking lot, she will automatically
know i've arrived. i loved my kia sorento. it had
everything on it. taylor had found it for me two
summers ago when he was home.

life happens.
just like death.
in a second. a moment. and
everything changes. someone
walks into his job of 24 yrears, and
is notified he is being fired. "do not
show up tomorrow!"

a woman from facebook says she has
sent out 500plus job applications....i don't know
how often or for how long....but she is putting one
foot in front of the other. i'm so glad she told me
about herself. finding a job or a car that i can
afford is so difficult. today, i am going to the bank.
to the grocery store. getting whatever i need in
case i can't leave my house. without a car, there
is no where for me to go since i'm in the country.

i'm afraid. i cannot remember one day that i haven't
gone somewhere. errands or visiting someone or
heading for the gym to workout. and how will i look
for cars? or get here to panera's to blog?

"fear not, for i am with you. do not be
dismayed. I am your God. I will
strengthen you; i will help you; i will uphold
you with My victorious right hand." (isaiah 41:10)

whatever your needs are today,
and whatever are mine...we are commanded
to be CONTENT. that the closer we draw to Jesus,
the more power He infuses in us.

the accident was not my fault, but i was left
with some big problems. Jesus always stops us
when we are just roaming around. on some level,
self-sufficient. He calls us to bow down. to sit and
rest. to be silent and listen. so He can use what is
happening to us to stretch our wings and help us to
fly higher and farther for Him. to learn to be utterly
dependant on Him. we are waiting, Lord. waiting
for You.

9 comments:

  1. Lord, we lift up Ann's need for a car, this day this hour. We know that you are Sovereign and own cattle on a thousand hills. She loves you,obeys you and trusts you and she also points us always to your love and provision and perfect timing. We know that a car provides her transportation to navigate to those places where she serves you and touches people in your name. Lord, you alone know where the car is that is perfect for Ann and affordable or could be a gift from one who has one to spare. We trust you Lord for Ann and praise you for how you will provide for this essential need. We often witness how you do exceedingly abundantly above all we could ever ask or think when we submit to you. So we stand on tiptoe and await your answer for Ann, to the glory of your name. Amen

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  2. Where two or three are in agreement...standing in prayer with Jody for Ann.

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  3. Hi Anne,

    I'm glad that you are sharing your challenges. While I used to laugh and cry with you, I was envious of your seemingly perfect life, going from success to success, seemingly never having a real struggle. Now that you are sharing more of your battles, you are now a “real” person to me—one who needs my prayers and who can understand my struggles.

    Let me share about how we found Mom's car. Dad died the end of October, leaving Mom four old clunkers. . .two of them non-functional, but which he was going to fix " someday". Although Dad was a retired minister, he was a pretty good mechanic. When he was not in too much pain, Dad tinkered with these old cars and kept at least two of them running. When he died, one of Mom's needs was to dispose of these four older cars for a car new enough that it wouldn't regulary break down. So. . .a week before Christmas she told me she wanted a car just like mine. I have a 2009 black diesel Jetta TDI--my first ever brand new car -- puchased courtesy of Dad with a down payment of one of his old clunkers and "Cash for Clunkers" program. In August 2009 I drove over an hour to find my car, as this was one of the last five diesel Jettas for sale in the state of Florida.

    As usual when I consider the purchase of a car, I earnestly sought God's guidance in my search for Mom's dream car. Not daring to hope that I would find a used diesel Jetta before Christmas, I dutifully searched Craig's List. Surprisingly, I found a 2006 listed. When the owner appeared in the shopping mall parking lot with her own black Jetta TDI, our cars looked like two twins! My 86 y/o Mom got in and took off, as always, driving "like a man." Mechanically sound, well-maintained by a savvy German woman, and priced at half of what my own car had cost, it seemed to Mom and I that this car was chosen for her by our heavenly Father, who knows what we need before we even ask.

    Heavenly Father, we submit our petition that you will guide Ann to the car that you have already chosen for her. In your precious name, we ask. Amen.

    P.S. By the way, I was again able to trade in one of Dad's old clunkers as down payment.

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  4. Ann, my husband and I just relocated back to the San Jose area after living seven years overseas. We found both our cars on Craigslist. Both were what we were looking for and at very, very reasonable prices. We prayed about finding these cars as well. Give Craigslist a shot and go from there. '

    In His Grip,
    Vickie

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  5. You're gonna get your car Ann! I know it. Once i had no car and someone from church had just bought a car because the Lord told them to and they had no idea why and then at a bible study they came up to me and said"The Lord told us to give u this car".. I was so surprised. GOD IS GOOD! Praying for you, and have a Blessed week!

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  6. I wonder if there is anyone out there with a nice, reliable car that they might be willing to donate to Ann? I am a friend of Ann's and while I don't have an extra vehicle, I would be willing to cover the airfare to fly Ann -or one of her sons perhaps- to wherever the car is to come pick it up, to drive it back to Ann's home state of California. Please let me know if this is a possibility - my email is Rob@CitiesUnlimited.com. Thanks for all who are praying for this miracle for Ann! She really needs it as soon as possible.

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  7. I wonder if there is anyone out there with a nice, reliable car that they might be willing to donate to Ann? I am a friend of Ann's and while I don't have an extra vehicle, I would be willing to cover the airfare to fly Ann -or one of her sons perhaps- to wherever the car is to come pick it up, to drive it back to Ann's home state of California. Please let me know if this is a possibility - my email is Rob@CitiesUnlimited.com. Thanks for all who are praying for this miracle for Ann! She really needs it as soon as possible.

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  8. Praying for your answer to prayer Ann. God has your car. I know it! Not sure when or where but I know it's there. In His time! Right?

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  9. I am so sorry this happened to you. Abba will be in the details--it's just difficult to be patient and hold on to that faith at times.
    My husband got encephalitis several years ago--lost a youth pastorate that was our sole source of income (and still on poverty level with three teen boys). We now live on his disability, with my MIL (no real area/place of our own). We struggle every day with the needs and the 'whens'. Still, we follow Abba and believe.
    Our middle son needed a very used, but reliable vehicle to go back and forth to college and we prayed and prayed. He only had a few thousand dollars to spend (from a fund my granddaddy left him) and we thought we'd never find one. At the last minute (literally, the Friday b/4 he started college on Monday) we found one. I believe in that kind of miracle for you.

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